filial piety...a pile of bullshit

condemn me if you want but i am too damn frustrated,pissed to care. currently i believe filial piety ingrained in me by chinese society is something used by parents to oppress kids.

just because i complain about my absolute lack of freedom to go out at night as and when i want to does not mean i will abuse that right (if its ever given) and go out at night as and when i want to without a care of "family" or till the wee hours of the night.

JUST because you do not SEE me reading educational books or whatever shit u call it in order to"enrich" my brain does not MEAN i DON'T. just because you see my brother with a book in hand in 1 morning DOES NOT mean he does it EVERY MORNING. FOR PETE'S SAKE

JUST because YOU think i'm not focused, have my heads in the clouds DOES NOT MEAN I AM. FOR GOD'S SAKE i'm a FREAKING 24 YEAR OLD WHO KNOWS HOW TO THINK. BLARDY HELL!!!!!

YOU say it is because of YOU and your restraints that i have today. FINE. i don't deny that. BUT your restraints TODAY are not useful ANYMORE and is driving to your kid to RESENTMENT.

what happened to the bible saying "parents do not drive your children to resentment"? well i guess it doesn't apply because ALL FOCUS is on "children respect your parents" children cannot talk back cuz its RUDE, children cannot say a single shit cuz its NOT RIGHT well people, when they try to DEFEND themselves for THEIR actions its WRONG JUST because the adults are OLDER. oh for pete's sake, JUST because you are OLDER doesn't mean you KNOW EVERY DAMN THING.

discussions are USELESS if you only want to hear what you want to hear and believe what you do is right.

WELL NEWSFLASH darling, ITS NOT!
RESENTMENT IS GROWING OVER HERE. HELLO~

and if i try to defend myself you go the guilt trip road and say i'm not grateful and scold me even more.

i do not have the RIGHT to speak OUT against what i feel is unjust because i'm suppose to be OH SO respectful BECAUSE of filial piety enforced on us by society and keep silent when being told off. oh piss off.

i'm going to get PR. this is what you want isn't it? but guess what? it's not for career. it's not for myself. it's for....well brace yourself darling cuz u are gonna get a big big shock well i say it out. it's BECAUSE i want OUT of your RANGE OF CONTROL. did ya faint? oh dear. well tough luck buddy cuz IT'S THE TRUTH. i want to stay in singapore to work because i love this country and i want to contribute to the economy. to give back to the country that has nurtured me. BUT your CONTROL is driving me INSANE and I WANT OUT!